Yesterday was June 1st and I mentioned to a few people that I thought I would give up sugar for the month of June. Yes, of course I got laughs. I think one person actually spit out what they had in their mouths at the time. Yah, lots of support. Whatever!
I took my daughter and step-daughter for a hike at Sunol yesterday. When I told them about my thoughts, my daughter was very quick to respond with a "NO!" She went on to explain. "Sugar is your substitute for alcohol." "Running is like your drunk. It gives you the rush and the 'feel good' feeling you need that you used to get from alcohol. But sugar satisfies your craving for alcohol. You can't give up sugar!" She's dead-on!!
Alameda Creek, Sunol Regional Wilderness ParkI have been challenged today by the devil on my shoulder, telling me how good a drink would be. How nice it would be to sit down with a glass of wine or a cold beer. I don't like this. I don't need this. It sucks! I haven't had a desire to drink for quite a while and that's a blessing, I know. Whenever something gets me upset, I don't think of a drink. If I'm lonely, I don't think of a drink. If I'm sad, I don't think of a drink. I'm not 100% sure what brought this on today.
But if I had to think of something, I guess it could be the fact that my estranged father is in an ICU in San Francisco because he had heart bypass surgery last night. My brother and I were going to go see him today but evidently he still has tubes everywhere. We will go see him tomorrow. I haven't seen him in almost 20 years, haven't spoken to him in 14. I didn't think I was nervous, anxious, scared. Maybe inside I am. Maybe by admitting that, it will be better when I wake up tomorrow morning. The good news, however, is that I didn't drink!
I tried some retail therapy. By the way, when you work retail, you no longer get retail therapy. I hardly ever buy "road running" shoes anymore but seeing as I have signed up to run the SF 1/2 marathon in July, I figured I'd better get some. I picked up these kicks today.