Cute new running outfit? Check
Hat, sunglasses, sunscreen? Check
Ankle taped up? Check
Good mental state? OOPS!
I think my week affected me more than even I want to admit. And remember when I said I held back my tears at the hospital? I shouldn't have. The outcome? A giant meltdown on the side of the trail at mile 5.5 of a 16 mile run. When you are climbing almost continuously for that long and you are by yourself, your mind can wander. I try to keep it positive but today I just couldn't get enough good thoughts together. I couldn't get any. I tried, I tell ya. I continued on up the trail for a little bit and felt another meltdown coming on. I stopped, took my number off, turned around and went back down the trail. Enough is enough. Get me the heck out of here. After a couple of miles, I was disappointed in myself that I didn't go all the way to the turn around point. Yup, I felt like a loser!
I have some nice pictures to share though. ;)
Last time I ran at Mount Diablo was the marathon in April. It was 95 degrees that day. I used this water to cool myself off at one point. Today it was COLD! I wish I had gloves. And my long sleeved shirt. It was overcast and windy up high. Everyone just ran on by the available water today.
I did catch these two military men visiting from Camp Pendleton. I enjoyed chatting with them for a couple of miles. It's always fun to tell "boys" I have a daughter just about their age. Jaws drop and the accusations fly. I could keep their 7:48 pace on the downhill portions but once it flattened out I had to let them go. They were doing the 50K. I told them smoking crack wasn't allowed in the military and they had to be smoking it to agree to do THIS 50K. It's brutal.
I waited around for Christy to finish in 4:05. Good job girl!
Theresa finished a few minutes later. Taking 20 minutes off her time from last year. Way to go!
I'm glad I waited around (actually, I had to - I drove Christy. LOL) because Theresa ordered three mountain sized pizzas to be delivered at 1:00. And, there was CAKE!
It's easy to work through a difficult situation if you're mentally strong. It's impossible to work through a difficult situation if you're not. Today, I was not. I think today happened just as it was supposed to. I don't question that. It's not like I ever have "free time" to just sit and cry. It was forced upon me. I'm cool with that.