When does the pain stop? When does a mom stop feeling the pain for her children? At what point in a child's life does a mom stop worrying about her child? Is there ever a time when a mom stops wishing she could physically remove all pain from her child with a magic wand?
My poor little girl had to have her wisdom teeth pulled this morning. I picked her up at 8:30 to get her to her 9:00 appointment. My stomach was upset, I was so nervous for her. She has never had a surgery, a broken bone, stitches, a tattoo, not even a cavity. She was very upset when I picked her up. I could tell she'd been crying. It just breaks a mother's heart to see her child this way. She was so scared. I was able to sit in the room with her until they were actually ready to put the laughing gas mask on her face. She was trembling like a leaf when I left the room. I went into the waiting room and I literally felt like I was going to throw up. It took about 45 minutes until they came and told me she was awake. It felt a lot longer than that, let me tell ya. When I went in there, she was awake but she looked completely out of it. It was strange because I've never even seen her intoxicated. Her cheeks are all swollen and her mouth is full of gauze. She did say to me, "I LITERALLY have cotton mouth now." And then she kind of laughed. Her whole face is numb and she says her tongue feels very fat. She kept asking if there was something on her tongue. "Yes honey, it's gauze." A few minutes later, "Is there something on my tongue?" "Yes honey, it's gauze." Poor thing.
I picked up her pain meds and brought her here, back to her old bed in her old bedroom. She's falling in and out of sleep with an ice pack on her shoulder, holding it up against her face. The numbness is starting to go away and the pain is becoming real for her. All I keep thinking is I wish it was me instead of her.