I thought I had it all figured out. I thought I had a plan. I thought I knew what I wanted. GAH!
Then I began thinking too much!
A couple of weeks ago, I sent an email to my friend Lisa (Lisa's Ironman Training Log), seeking encouragement to complete a challenging sprint triathlon on May 23rd. (Auburn, CA Triathlon - Half-Iron, Sprint and Duathlon*) In perfect friendship fashion, she gave me all the encouragement I needed. She told me I had plenty of time to train for this event but I really needed to work with my bike on the hills. No problem! I need to get some open water swimming experience as well. Bleh! I haven't been in ANY water since my triathlon in SEPTEMBER. Problem? Perhaps. But, maybe not. I know I can swim and I liked it when I was doing a bunch of it last summer.
I was "this close" to signing up for Auburn. I was reading about the swim course, the bike course and the run course. I was watching the videos and looking at photos from previous years. I began thinking that I could stay overnight at my Dad's in Sacramento the night before and maybe, just maybe, he'd want to come and watch me. Maybe I would finally hear "I'm proud of you" come out of his mouth. Then I thought maybe he would say no, he wasn't interested in standing around, waiting for me to come back into the area for a few minutes during transition. All these childhood insecurities started coming back up. Was I wanting to do this as a way of seeking approval from my Dad? In some strange way, I believe deep down, I was. I was having trouble getting these thoughts out of my head. Suddenly, I didn't want to do Auburn anymore. Why do I need to do an overnight stay for a little sprint triathlon anyway, right? It just started to become too big of an ordeal.
I figured there had to be something closer that I can do this year. So, I started looking at a few different triathlon calendars and I decided I would like to an Olympic distance triathlon this year.
I have decided on this Olympic distance triathlon in June: USA Productions Events*
But first, I will do this sprint triathlon in May: USA Productions Events*
Now I wonder, should I join a triathlon club, such as SVTC to help me with training?
Should I rent a wet suit or just buy one? Do I get a Zoot, Orca, Tyr, Blue Seventy? Full sleeve? No sleeve? I definitely need one because I have to start getting into open water as soon as the temperature permits.
*If you could help me make my links say whatever I want them to say, I would appreciate it!
01/17 - 2 mile walk
01/18 - 3 mile run
01/19 - "24SET" class at the gym
01/20 - "Camp24" class at the gym